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Thanks for this Mary- an interesting read! It has left me reflecting on my own ‘bad baby’ and the war between my own parts. I’m aware of a powerful protector part- a strong lioness who makes an appearance quite often and a weaker darker creature that resembles some kind of aardvark shape which I associate with spinning, wailing, tantrums …I think this is my ‘bad baby’. It doesn’t like to talk to me often but here’s hoping that one day it may feel safe enough to stop spinning.

I’m really interested in the different types of desire that we all may come across. For me, I’m aware of a desire for challenge. Similarly with your bear, when faced with my desire, I experience other voices that pop up that tell me what I ought to be doing, perhaps to take care of myself e.g. “this could be tough”, “there is a risk of failure” or “you don’t have the resources this time” but interestingly this makes the desire for the challenge all the more appealing! The harder the challenge the better the buzz! I’m in discussions with my parts to find out more about this but suspect it’s something about proving I can do things for myself and not needing anyone. I’m still wondering if the desire is for the sense of achievement on completion of the challenge or for the sense of anticipation for the challenge itself…

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I am wondering if desire is more powerful when we try to resist it?

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It seems that there is some kind of tension between what we ‘know’ or feel we ought to be doing and what we actually desire. For example, with food, we may know that we should fuel our body with healthy foods that are good for us but we desire sweet foods that provide that fix. It seems the shame comes in when we don’t feel we are living our lives as we should. The rebellious part of me is curious about whether desire is particularly strong because it can rebel against what is ‘good’ for us. I think it is important to engage with desire, guilt free, as long as no one else is getting hurt